A major milesone!

Today marks a major milestone - we've reached 23 weeks without going into labor!! We are one week away from the beginnings of the viability spectrum and Masarra is holding on tight. She's been incredibly active this week. Perhaps she knows Mama needs a little extra reassurance that all is well. :)

Sami and I were pleased to get a relatively good report from the doctors this week. My cervix declined about 1/4 of a centimeter instead of the more than 1 centimeter a week that I was losing. Looks like all of this bed rest is paying off! Now if I can only manage to endure 13 more weeks of it w/o being admitted to the hospital. I really hope I can, because this week has taught me an important lesson: Bed rest is VERY difficult if you don't have TIVO! Seriously, I have nearly wiped out my TIVO library. Thankfully neighbors and friends have given me DVDs to watch. I mean, I like the Olympics and all, but I must confess that I am not as in to them this year and most of my staple programming is in rerun during the Olympics. :(

I never thought I was a supersticious person before the start of our fertility journey, but boy am I now! I made Sami help me pack a bag for the hospital this past Monday with the exact thought that if I didn't, they'd tell me I had to be admitted. So, now that bag is stitting next to the bed ready for a return trip to the doctor on Monday. Hope it still has some magic left for Monday.

So, how have I passed my time, besides watching TV that is? I've played Facebook games, solitaire and pinball till I'm blue in the face. Today, I decided to close my eyes and imagine that Sami and I got to go to Texas Roadhouse for dinner tonight. I was enjoying my imaginary yeast roll until Sami covered my nose and mouth so that I couldn't breath to snap me out of it. Yep... I'm going crazy folks! I'm sooooo excited for Monday so that I can get out of the house for another horizontal car ride... only this Monday I get 2. I have an endocrinologist appointment for the gestational diabetes checkup and then an afternoon appointment to see how things are going with my cervix. Yeay! Fieldtrips! lol

I really thought yesterday would have been a rough day for me since that was the day that I went into labor last time. However, I had a prenatal massage on Wednesday and did a session of bodytalk (similar effects as meditation) where I concentrated on convincing myself that it is possible for my body to go to 36 weeks with this pregnancy. I honestly alternate day to day as to how much I truly believe that. But yesterday I did, so that is all that mattered. It helped me make it through the day. I was not, however, able to watch one of my favorite shows, Private Practice. Seriously, could they have picked a better day to show a woman struggling with what to do for her 25 week preemie?! I wonder about Shonda Rimes sometimes. Right after we lost Solomon to NEC, she happened to have a young boy on Grey's Anatomy suffering from Short Bowel Syndrome... which Solomon would have been at risk for had he survived. I didn't even TIVO Private Practice last night. I figured by the time I can handle that epidsode, it will be in reruns anyway.

So, it's time for another action packed weekend of lying in bed doing nothing! Jealous, aren't ya!? lol

2 weeks down...14 to go???

We've survived another week of strict bedrest. Only 2 trips to the hospital this week... not bad! lol All is going well so far overall. With one exception. I am HUNGRY 24/7. I need a buffet table set up in my bedroom I guess! Yesterday I couldn't get enough food, ever. I had Sami go out and get me an order of spaghetti w/meat sauce AND meetballs. I usually split that order over 2 days. Not yesterday. I wolfed it down and looked around the bed hoping that there'd be more somehow... no use. I hate half a loaf of french bread too. So, you'd think my blood sugar would be through the roof, but it wasn't. That's the thing, my blood sugar has been on the low end this week. I've not had to use my pre meal insulin at all. And it looks like I'll have to cut back on my morning and evening doses too. Guess all this laying around and doing nothing is taking it's toll. :)

We got a TON of snow yesterday. They are saying that 12.5 inches fell in 24 hours, the most since 2011. It was beautiful to watch it from my bedroom windows, but I wish I could have been out there with all the other kids and kids at heart building snowmen. Next winter hopefully, we'll have Masarra out there playing in the snow with us!

That's the last time Sami gets a vacation during this pregnancy! :)

Let me start by saying I am exhausted!!! I didn't get much sleep last night. First, I had bad heartburn from the pizza I had while watching the superbowl. Then, when I wanted to go to sleep I got this horrible pelvic pressure that would not stop for like an hour or more. By then, I was terrified to go to sleep. I knew I had an early am OB appt, so I didn't call since I wasn't feeling contractions. Today, we learned that my funneling is worse and my cervix is now 3.4 to 3.8 (OB vs Peri measurements a few hours apart) with 1.5 to 2 above the stitch. Ideally, you want your cervix to be 4cm long at this point until week 24 when it naturally starts to shorten. I was admitted for a while for contraction monitoring, but didn't have any noticeable contractions, so my docs got together and decided that if I stay on strict bedrest, I can spend the next week at home. So, here I am, back where I was last pregnancy, but at least this time I have a cerclage. All my faith is now in that tiny little stitch. And, this just goes to show that my cervix really is incompetent and that I REALLY needed that cerclage back in December. I think my Peri was beginning to question whether or not my cervix was wacky since things had been going so well. It's amazing how fast the decline was this time. It wasn't even this bad last time with twins in there.

Apparently I am a legend in L&D. When I checked in today everyone was all smiles asking if I remembered them (we stayed quite a while last time and I had a pretty nasty infection after delivery). Several things surprised me. My nurse today was my nurse the day I delivered, and she remembered me immediately. She said she's never been angrier in her life than she was with my old Peri the day I delivered. (He was very cold and to the point in saying "Baby B didn't make it." followed by a swift exit from my room and life... yes, I would have never seen him again if I hadn't sought him out). Apparently all the nurses know about it and were shocked by his behaviour... all this time I thought it was just me. lol Sounded like he's been blacklisted by more than just Sami and I. Everyone was thrilled that we are pregnant again and have made it this far. I feel like I have such a huge stand full of cheerleaders for us. While I'm scared by the rate of change in my cervical length (apparently they are concerned with anything over a .5cm change per week) I am placing my full trust in that handy dandy cerclage.

Please, continue to keep us in your prayers. We appreciate all that you've done for us to date and pray that we can carry this little bundle of joy until she's had enough time to come out with a fighting chance.